why why why.

See, there's this thing about feeling guilty. Usually, well actually to start off, there's the idea of right and wrong, good and evil, etc. Everyone knows that. Be it from upbringing where our parents told us about the general idea of it, or perhaps religion, school system, siblings for that matter, we know from somewhere, somehow that there're certain societal norms we need to comply before being deemed deviant.

Then from there, we decide whether we chose to be a "law-abiding citizen" and try our best to be good, do the right things, yada yada yada, or chose to be a bad-guy and do whatever it is we want, when we want, how we want and to whom we want.

But different throughout every being, there's a different level of guilt-feeling/pang. If one is brought up in say a religious home where good things were all that were expected of him, and he does a small thing like lie about feeling sick so he doesn't have to go to school, then the guilty feeling is a whole lot stronger; compare that to a guy who was brought up in a broken home where his parents never cared and bothered to check if he went to school, skipping out on classes was part of his daily schedule. In fact, going to classes might even be a deviant behavior for him.

But see, that's talking about doing something, and then feeling guilty for doing what we did. How about the times when we never did anything wrong, and yet still feel guilty for something that has happened? I'm sure that has happened to you. So then, is that guiltiness? Is not guiltiness defined as a feeling that we have when we do something 'wrong' and wish we perhaps had not? So is that feeling then guiltiness? If it is, then does guiltiness mean something more than what we think it to be? Or say it's not guiltiness, then this feeling that we have is not guiltiness, but yet mirrors it in so many ways.

So then, what is that feeling? What is THIS feeling? Why do I feel guilty for doing something I never did? Why do I feel bad, that something that I did not to nor choose to do, and is affecting me so much that I can't even operate?

Please someone, enlighten me. For this soul is duly in distress, and productivity level has reached an all time low in the plunge towards darkness and misery.